A celebrity death has never made me cry and hurt this much. I can only guess as to why. Robin Williams was in a lot of my favorite movies, he made me laugh and he made me cry. He was such a gifted actor. Maybe it hurts too because I have suffered from depression before, and even had an attempt which left me with a nice little ambulance ride to the hospital. I’ve also lost people to suicide, and I think his passing brings up these awful memories deep inside me that I never wanted to revisit again.
These past few days have been weird and confusing for me. I’ve pretty much stayed in bed crying every now and then. I know I’ll feel better soon, but for now, my heart is just a little bit too heavy to smile.
R.I.P. Robin Williams.